Passion in itself is defined in the dictionary as a powerful or compelling emotion – love, hate, desire, anger. Having passion for the things you love, the things you hate, the things you desire, and even the things that drive anger is having a strong sense in the direction of how you feel. For example, I have a love, a passion, for spending time with my family. I have a hate, a passion, that I’m unable to help others as much as I desire to help others.
Being passionate is about being compelled and ruled by the love, hate, desire, and anger feelings that fuel passion. Over my 31 years, my passions have evolved and some of them have changed. Life happens and we are constantly growing and learning and adapting, finding ourselves a little every day. This last Christmas, Christmas of 2016, I woke up for the first time in my life without the desire, the longing, the passion for receiving gifts; instead, I woke up with a passion, a longing, for gift-giving, ministering, and taking the reason behind the season to those I love who maybe had forgotten. I realized on Christmas this last year that I had finally reached a point in my life where GOD was moving to my first priority (where He should always have been) and my passions in life were evolving into something wonderful.
This year, I am even more passionate about living a healthy life and being a healthy example for my son. I grew up overweight and from my previous posts, you know that I faced hardships and bullying and obesity. I also chose to rise above, to seek healthy living and behaviors. I was gifted with pregnancy after 7 years of infertility and I have refused, ever since that moment of Grace, to show my son that dark part of me. I choose every day to wake up, thank God, hold tight on positive affirmations and perspective, make healthy choices, and be the best example I can be for him. I am passionately in love with my son – he is my life. And I am still working on my love-hate passion for burpees!
This year, I am more passionate with ministering and being a positive, ministering light in the life of my brother who is incarcerated. Imagine a place of loneliness, of constant fear for your life. Imagine facing that head on, every single day for years, because of some selfish choices you made. I was once in the hospital for 22 days (in 2012) and I remember it feeling like THE loneliest place I’d ever been in, even with hundreds around you. I would never wish that on anyone. My brother, because he is incarcerated and serving consequence of his actions, faces loneliness and emptiness every day of his life for his term. He wakes up with his back along the wall and stays that way for almost all of his days out of fear of those around him – he is surrounded with criminals. What I’ve made my priority is bringing a little light – a little bit of God into his life. He hasn’t always been there for me like he should as a big brother; he hasn’t always been sober; he hasn’t always made the best decisions, but he is my brother and I am God’s servant. I will #speaklife to him every chance that I get. THAT is love; THAT is passion and hope for more for him; that is my heart.
This year, I am passionate about music again for the first time in 14 years since high school. I was always involved with music. I learned piano as a child, I was always singing and in various types of choirs, and my dream as a little girl was to be a singer. I lost sight of that through my darkest years following high school. God has been working in me. Last year was the best year of my life and God has led me back home. He’s reignited fires that I thought had burned out. Over the last 6 months, I’ve felt pulled by the Holy Spirit to get back into music; to start giving time and talent in the church as part of the Worship Arts team in vocals. When I thought perhaps maybe I wasn’t interpreting the Holy Spirit’s messages right, the Worship Arts team reached out to me – patience is not one of my virtues. Ha! This week, I went through the process of Evaluation and was welcomed with open arms to the team – my PASSION is burning brighter now than ever. I am absolutely thrilled and thankful and blessed to be a part of this team – to be a face of our church; to bring others to God as they have done for me.
This year more than ever, I am passionate for learning the Word, for evolving my faith, for growing in the Holy Spirit. Above all else, I am a child of God and I want to move and be and behave in a way that makes God proud. My passion for life, for living, for being an example and an inspiration, for giving hope to others on a daily and consistent basis is part of my walk. I pray today that you too find your passion and your calling. Charge forward with that strong sense of LOVE for something – the world needs a little more love and a little less hate.
And let us never forget the passion found in John 3:16…
“For God loved the world so much that he gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life.” THAT is God’s strong and unveiling love for US.