Well, hey, guys! This post is just a tad later than I usually post something, but I’m working on that along with all of the other things on my ever-growing list. I thought this would be a great way to start off the new year with a song about change because I know it’s on everyone’s minds these days including myself. I have to be honest and let you know that I hate change; absolutely despise change even though it seems to love following me around everywhere I go. I was talking about this very topic with my cousin late into the first night that my brother and I stayed at her house – how change is a vital part in every aspect of life and no matter how hard change may be at times it’s a good thing even when it doesn’t seem like it. The majority of the time I have a really difficult time with the change because I don’t like the unexpected, I like knowing what’s coming, but unfortunately, life isn’t always that gracious to let you know what’s coming up next. Then there’s the very small part of me that looks forward to change because it does keep life exciting and keeps me on my toes which is fun at times. I’m itching for a little bit of change right now, but I’m trying to find a little bit of “predictable and controllable change” that I can handle if there is such a thing as that.
So there’s an interesting story that goes along with this song for me, and I kind of love being able to tell this story. It was my second time seeing Jenny Simmons, the former lead singer of Addison Road, and we were about midway through the concert when her guitarist began playing the intro for this song. When Jenny briefly introduced the song she mentioned my name, saying that I had definitely heard it before but in reality I had never heard the song before because although I was a huge fan I had mostly listened to just the singles off the two Addison Road albums. Since I hadn’t heard it before I listened intently as Jenny sang the song, and instantly fell in love with it. I was excited to listen to it more and really dig into the lyrics after the concert, cover it on YouTube, and tell the story on my old, secret blog of how my name was mentioned by a singer in the middle of her concert and regretfully not even knowing or ever hearing the song that she said that I was sure to have heard before.
I was a completely different person back then: I was still in high school privately talking to all of my Reba friends and publicly talking to all of my Project Inspired friends, and dealing with more than normal sibling issues to put it discreetly because I have been asked not to go into detail of that by my family. I was also dealing with a lot of changes in every shape and size: hourly, daily, weekly, and monthly, and was not handling it very well but thankfully had my Reba friends to vent to when I needed to. It’s crazy how much my life has changed in the almost four years since that concert and how distant that season of my life seems. Every day my life seemed to change just a little bit more, and I was in the process of discovering who I was mentally and emotionally: Introvert, highly sensitive person, and perfectionist. I was a total mess, and very much under construction in those days, and I still am but I feel like now I have a better grasp on life changes if that’s possible. It’s definitely something that I struggle with because I do like knowing what comes next, but I’m learning to be a better “go with the flow” person as much as I may struggle with that as well.
Every day I’m getting closer to the person that I’m meant to be, because God has a plan for me, just like He does for you who’s reading this post. There’s a verse in the Bible about how God is the Potter and we are the clay, and we’re being molded into the person that God wants us to be. But it takes work because it’s a process: hourly, daily, weekly, monthly, and yearly, and it takes being under construction and our own pride being broken – among other things – for these changes for the better to take place. A work in progress, being under construction, a change in the making, whatever you may call it and however grueling it may be, I believe it’ll be worth it in the end. Here’s to a new year of change for myself and all of us; may we be closer to the person we are meant to be at the end of this year.
How do you handle change? Let me know on social media!